I haven’t been on much lately because I have gotten back into horseback riding. I found my cure for stress – horses. I love horses. I can be having the worst day and everything will be better. I am now riding 3 days a week and am leasing a horse. I love him so much and he is the sweetest boy. I’m never sad or dissociating around him. My trainer said “Don’t add onto his stress.” I know now, that no matter what kind of day I’m having, I will never add onto the horse’s stress. When an artist is depressed and they go to paint all their sadness go away. When I ride, all my fears and stress go away. I’m happy to say that I have found my cure of this pain. I was born to gallop.
This is my horse:
There is one thing I love most: horseback riding. I would tell him how much I loved horses. At first he sighed and said, “I’ll get you one MAYBE.” I rode less and less. I lost interest in my favorite activity because of him.
During the summer time, I started riding more. I remember one day I showed him a picture of a horse on a couch in a house. I said I would love to have a horse like that! His response, “It’s me or the horse. You choose. Better choose right.” I said the horse.
At that point, I started getting hurt more. I withdrew from riding because he told me I couldn’t ride. I had to be with him and give all my time and energy to him. I got depressed. I think I was more horse deprived than anything. I didn’t ride for a full year. And apparently
This summer marked a year since I rode. I told myself that I will not let him control what I love. I got back on the horse! Now I ride mostly every week and plan to half-lease a horse in the fall! I am taking baby steps and horses have helped me through my roughest time. They sense my nervousness. I have to calm down in order to ride well and I do calm.
I love horses no matter what people tell me. Always have always will!