A year after being raped… My haunted past

I wanted to post this as I feel it’s crucial to know what it’s like to be raped. I’ve gotten a lot of “oh that doesn’t sound bad” or “just get over it”. In the past year, I’ve suffered from memories rising. Trauma does that to you – it blocks your memory. You remember certain bits, but later other things come up.

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Nightmares are back…

I’ve been having nightmares recently. They went away for awhile or I just haven’t noticed them as much. I’ve been sleeping my normal 8-10 hours a night, but sometimes I’ll wake up in the middle of the night feeling a bit panicky.  Last night, I think I was screaming because my puppy started barking at 1 in the morning.  It was hailing outside too, but I remember my dream and it would explain that I might have been screaming.

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